Don’t be selfish . . .
My little girl is just about to turn 2.5 years old. 
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I have never felt so complete in my roll as a child of God. Being a mother is the biggest and hardest and most rewarding thing I have ever done. I use to think that I had to be in the mission field or doing some new and novel thing for humanity for me to feel like I am making my life worth surviving cancer when so many die from it daily. (more on that on some other day in some other post) Being responsible for the mental and physical health and well being of this tiny, helpless person, has finally put my pressure to make something of myself to rest. I am honored to take this job on. That God trusts us with such a large task is beyond me.
Being a parent has also put a lot of my concerns and confusion about the human relationship with God to peace too. I still am on the spiritual journey. I hope to never think that I have it all figured out, because then I think that I would be spiritually complacent. But loving someone who can’t understand the love I have for them and who will do things I ask her not to do and who will hurt me and rebel from my love. This role I am in has given me a better idea of why God did what he did and does what he does for each one of us.
Don’t be selfish . . .
